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It has been a while since I posted an update here on my site. Actually, my summer is almost over since regular classes are about to start again. I’ll be on my last year in college (hopefully, and I’m claiming it) this coming academic year and to be honest, I’m a little nervous and excited. Being a senior is one of my detested yet most memorable experiences when I was in high school so I really want my senior year in college to be better than what I had in high school. Being a senior is actually like being a freshman- you’ll have to think of what will happen in your future and also you have to seize every moment because you’ll never know what happens next. Oh my goodness. I’m really excited about next year! So I better think of what I want to do! But if there’s one thing I’m certain, that would be, I’ll be always looking forward to experiencing new things, live life with no regrets and lastly, enjoy more memories with those people I truly love and treasure. Who knows what might happen after I graduate college, right? So I better live happily!
Anyway, it has been almost two weeks since I had my “real” vacation and I’m really glad I had to time to enjoy it. Well, I haven’t really done much that are not related to what I do in my everyday of life but I’m really happy I’ve done what I love the most. So these past few days, I have been on this site on the internet called Omegle. It’s a place where you talk to strangers randomly about things, or maybe getting to know others through chat. So anyway, I’ve been using Omegle before and I’m just tired of talking to random people who doesn’t share the same interests with me. Actually, ever since I’ve started going to Omegle, I haven’t really found anyone interesting to talk to. But lately, there were different circumstances that made me think about this site.
Well, I’ve started to use tags to make sure I share common interest with the person I’m talking too. And because I’ve always wanted to have new friends of different ethnic background and of the same experience as I am, I tried to use the tag, “gay”. To be honest, I was really hesitant to use this tag at first because I’ve never really had a chat with a stranger about my sexuality and what I usually do as a gay man. With one goal in mind, which is getting to know others who are in the same ground as I am, I started my journey. At first, it was really bad, because everyone seems to be looking for fun, which is not really my goal in going to Omegle. It has always been my dream to be in a conversation with a stranger about my life and about his, nothing more, nothing less. I really had a hard time looking for someone to talk to. But along the way, I’ve learned about people who use the tag “gay” on Omegle. There are these guys who are looking mainly for “fun” which is cyber sex. No offense but I really think that’s one of the main and good reasons why people use Omegle. But for me, it’s kind of disgusting. Sex is something intimate, and I think people should know that the internet is a public place also. It’s a place where every people of any age or gender go to, and I think it’s really sad because instead of talking and having good conversations, they use it to worship other people’s body parts and do it for pleasure. But what the heck, who am I to tell that to people. I’m not perfect too. So I wouldn’t blame them. Anyway, the second type of people on the “gay” section of Omegle is that of teenagers who are looking for hook-ups with people who are near their place. Well, Omegle is a chat site, not a dating site so I guess it’s not really appropriate. Especially because most of the users from Omegle are teenagers, I bet they’re also trying to explore the different types of relationships in the internet. But I think some kids are just too young to be on Omegle. I’ve even talked to a 12- year old kid in there. The third type would be the confused and exploring type. To be honest, this type is one is one of my favourite types. Well, maybe because I’ve been in that situation where I’ve experienced the crisis. And it is always good to be an example to other people. Or at least set an example. Kids who are actually having their own identity crisis drama are the ones who I think are really brave. I think that way because they are having doubts with who they truly are but also, they want to know the possibilities which are the “what ifs” of life. I really admire you people, especially those kids who are trying to find out what they really want. I’ve been in your place before and I’d like to share you what happened to me! Just remember that, everything will be okay! There’s no harm in just being you. What your heart says is what’s really important and not what other people say. Here it is: My Outing Letter. Second to the last type would be the deceiving type. Well, I kind of hate these kinds of people because I’ve been tricked by two people here. Well, to be honest, I really had fun talking to these people but what hurts the most about them is that you tell them about your life truthfully but they trick you and tell you who they are not and in the end tells you the truth because they feel guilty that they know the “truth” about you. I’ve been really hurt by them, but also I’ve learned something from them too. The internet is also a place where you should keep some things to yourself. But then, I’ve come to realize what’s more important. And that would be to keep on sharing yourself with others. I have never been this happy sharing myself with strangers before and I feel happy and contented that I’ve shared thing with them. So to those two people, I just want to say that I’m still your friend and you know a lot of stuff about me so please if you could, SHUT UP! 😛 And lastly, there are those people who want to have a really easy and laid back conversation. This is the type which I truly love. As what I’ve said earlier, one of the reasons why I want to be on Omegle was because I really wanted to have someone to talk to about anything about my life or his life, and this type is the most suitable of them all. To be honest, these people are the ones that I truly want to be friends with. I’m not sure if they are real people but to me, they are the best people on the site. And I’d like to say that I might be one of those people. Yes, I maybe bragging or labelling myself in this category but I think I deserve to be in this class. I might have been tricked two times but I’m proud that I have stayed truthful to myself and I’m not really hurting someone. Anyway, I also had been in these conversations and I’m really satisfied at what the outcome is. It made me realize how some people still tell strangers about themselves yet also enjoying the spontaneity of the conversation. I’m really happy for these types of conversation. And that is why I’m saying that because of that type of people, Omegle is now one of my happy places. I know a “Happy Place” is a term used to say that you are satisfied with your life or it’s something to refer to a state wherein you feel very much content with what you have- A place where you’re happy.
Thanks to Omegle, I’ve truly found a simple happy place where I can talk to strangers about what I want and what I like. It has been a place where I’ve shared my life to other people, and especially, a place where I could be just myself and nothing else. To all those people I’ve met there and contacted after our conversation, I’m truly happy because I’ve found out things I never knew about myself. I have done things I never thought I’d do, and most importantly, I’ve found new people which I’m very much willing to share my life with, and hopefully have their lives shared with me. I am definitely excited for what’s in store for us, new friends and I’m glad we’ve met! Thank you! You keep me wanting to share my life with others too and to just be myself and not someone else! ❤ xx